How can something kill you and keep you alive at the same time? This is chemical engineering for me... It's the only thing that has ever stimulated the analytical side of my brain for more than 2 minutes, but it has sucked the artistic energy out of my life. I came into college wanting to pursue so many things and now the only thing on my mind is when my next design project, process control lab, or materials assignment is due. When I was a freshman, I wrote a 3-movement, 17-minute piano sonata in a week. The artistic energy to do something like that was just there. Now, in my senior year, I haven't touched the piano in 2 years because I've been so focused on graduating in 4 years with my major and 2 insane minors. Where do I start to get that creativity back? I used to want to take pictures of anything and everything every chance I got. Now, all my pictures are boring, typical college student pictures with a bunch of friends in a poorly composed shot. I don't know. Maybe once you lose it, it's gone for good.